Christmas is over and the new year will be here in a couple of day. Most of us will say yeah! "2008 is over and 2009 will be a better year, I know it will because I'm going to change by doing"........... and the list goes on. If you haven't said it I know you are thinking it. I'm right there along with you. Or you feel you're not doing what you are suppose to be doing in life so you want this year to be the year of change. That's where I'm at! I feel in my heart there needs to be changes in my life but I'm not sure what. I'm not sure what GOD is trying to tell me or what he wants to do with my life.
You know there is different season in your life and that brings along changes, like when you turn a certain age or something big happens in your life like marriage, baby, new job, kids graduation, sickness, death, or becoming an empty nester etc.... my hubby and I are at the change of becoming empty nesters, the kids growing up. Don't get me wrong I kinda like, it just sometimes it gets lonely, why you think I babysit a lot... I LOVE LITTLE KIDS!!!!!! I'm at a point in my life where most of you would think it's great, my hubby and I are getting along great we are enjoying our time together alone, no kids to take care of. When I want kids I babysit, then go home to my husband. But I feel deep down there is still something I need to be doing. I have changed some thing these past 6 months. I cut back on working childcare at my church, trying to get my health back in shape. I have started taking care of 3 awesome children, no words can explain how I feel about them. Actually their mom is the one that talked me into blogging, you need to check out her blog, Gilesfamilyof5, it's in my blog list. I love that family, they are awesome, it's was a GOD thing (that's another blog at another time). Kele I need to brag a little. When I walk through their door I have one little girl screaming Mrs House(working on Joella).... and comes up to me with the biggest smile on her face, the sparkles in her eyes and gives me the biggest hug and kiss, the little guy is getting better he is starting to smile, he's a momma boy and loves his momma. Then I go into the living room where the other lil' precious baby girl is and all I have to do is say "HI", she lights up and gives me the biggest smile. They all melt my heart. So I know this family is a new part of my life and I'm excited to see where it leads me this new year. I also started these new blogs and hope to start working my new business of scrapbooking for others, taking pictures, selling jewelry, hair bows and my other thing. But I still feel there is something else. I know I need to work on my daily bible reading, get a better prayer life and work on getting in better health, but there is still something else. I know GOD will reveal it to me sometime I just have to have patience, ugh I don't like that word... Sorry this was long I can be long winded sometimes, but I try not to be. I want to finish with this little blog I wrote on my myspace in Aug when a lot of stuff was going on in my life, a change with my daughter. I hope it touches someone heart.
A Life Lesson
As we live our life one day at a time we learn lessons. There is different lessons we learn at different part and ages of our life. All through out my life I have learned some valuable lessons, and each stage of my life as a girl, a friend, a daughter, a wife, a mom and a christian I have learned some very valuable lessons. Whether they were good, bad, sad or heartbreaking. You think you are prepared for any and can endure anything that comes your way. You are a good person, trying to live a good life and BAM some terrible life lesson hits you in the face. You sit back and wonder what lesson are you suppose to learn from that. Isn't it amazing the hardest and the most hurtful lessons come from the people you love the most. Whether it's from family, husband, your children or your parents. How you handle the situation and deal with it after it is over is the lesson you learn. Some of the situation and life lesson I have had over the past couple of year has been the hardest, especially these past few months and the last couple of weeks. I'm not sure that I really wanted the Life Lesson that I was dealt with. They have been some really hard lesson to handle, especially with my children (young adults so they think). If someone would of told me that I was going to have to go through these Life Lesson with them, I would of told them "you are crazy, not I". I'm not sure if I would of said "no way, I am not going to go through that with them." I probably I would of said I would rather not live. But you see it doesn't work that way. You have to deal with it and you can deal with it becasue you are their parent and know matter what they do and how you deal with the lesson you still love them. Along with your Life Lesson they are learning a Life Lesson too. How you handled it, the way you told them how you feel, approved or disapproved is a Life Lesson they are learning. Even though you may get mad at them or vise versa doesn't mean you don't love them and the way they handled it doesn't mean they don't love you. It is just one Life Lesson that isn't good and you have to go on with life.
There is someone great that helps me with my life lessons good or bad, my imaginary friend from above, he is awesome! He is there for me and helps me understand the lessons, good or bad. He is the one when it is bad that picks me up and help me through that lesson, give me a shoulder to cry on, a hand shake when it's good and gives me a pat on the back when I have learned from the lesson good or bad. When I need to talk to someone I talk to him, I know he will listen. I can tell you right now that he is wiping away my tears and carrying me on his back in this Life Lesson I"m going through now. And all of my blessed friends are giving him moral support and encouraging him to keep helping me, my husband and my children. I know I will get through it and I must go on becasue there is more Life Lesson for me to learn. I must turn loose of my children so they will learn their own Life Lessons good or bad, because they will have their imaginary friend from above to help them out if only they ask him. I have tried really hard to teach them that Life Lesson, whether they learned it or not is up to them. My imaginary friend isn't really imaginary, he is in my heart an soul, his name is JESUS.
There are 2 verses/saying that I have taped on my computer that helps me with my Life lessons. I would like to share them with you, maybe it might help you through some of your Life Lesson. The Will of GOD will never take you to where the Grace of GOD will not protect you! Happiness keeps you sweet, Trials keep you strong, Sorrow keeps you humble, Success keeps you growing, BUT only GOD keeps you going!
These are what keeps me going!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love Ya!
Joella
Pictures of the 3 that melt my heart!
Mikah, Jett & Presley
